Friday, December 24, 2010

More flowery stuff

What makes some situations feel OK / good / incredible?

Some things that do, for me:

WANTING
The process and state of wanting itself (scary words like need, desire, aspiration, ambition touch some of the edges) integral to having the energy to live at all.

ACHIEVEMENT
The very temporary but springy buzz of achievement, the concrete outcome of sacrificial choices. An infinite list of potential successes (no need to fear the S-word, it's easy enough to remember that failures are far more numerous): a successfully managed occasion or event, a fluid piece of writing, a performance of any sort, the creation of a thing of beauty ...

BEAUTY
A yearning melody catching at the heart, a colour or a shape, a concept, a momentary freedom,a harmonic shift encapsulating a hard-won inner peace, a convergence that flashes a moment of emotional brilliance, a stolen moment with nature, another infinite list ...

CHANGE
Positive change in or for someone where something I have said, have done, have made happen, or (best) am provides a punch-the-air jolt of purpose and connection.

ENCOURAGEMENT
Encouragement or affirmation, sourced internally or externally to the god-aware self - you can, you are, you have done enough, you are beautiful, capable, challenging, comforting, worthwhile, special to me, no me too, you shine, you are radiant!

LOVE
(of a particular kind, partial but real)
The euphoric energy of being IN love with another - the beautifully selective vision (aka rose-coloured glasses), the sense of possibility, the blossoming of natural courage and emotional potential, the peak experiences, knowing this must be ephemeral! and still the fullness of the living is undiminished.

All of these for all of us - wondrous and real, cast sometimes randomly amidst the not-to-like and the hard, pointy, tough stuff.

Else who would bother?

Your own triggers and motivators will be different - what are they?

L

(Blue Christmas service for sad people, time to stop trying so hard, help for Alex, small occasional (at least) joys for all of us, buying stuff for Christmas, African Christmas decoration for our tree, a PARTY with a gentle fun buzz and a purple dress (not mine), warm days and the pool, more books, helping the children through the first Christmas 7 weeks on.)

2 comments:

  1. Hi Lois. We will be thinking of you all tomorrow and hoping that the day brings some joy and rest to you all. All our best wishes - Alison Sarah and COlin

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  2. God Bless you all as you face the first Christmas without Gerald. Remember the happy times of past Christmases and the family traditions you have established and enjoyed over the years. Remember too that Gerald is celebrating Christmas with Jesus this year. Hallelujah. He's probably organised a Christmas show! Both of my children are overseas for Christmas this year - Dairne in Germany for two months on exchange and Andrew working on the Gold Coast for ten weeks - so it feels a bit strange at our home too. Thinking of you all. Relax and try to enjoy the holidays. Coralie

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