what to say?

Stayed home today - didn't want to repeat yesterday's drama.
After watching Tomorrow Never Dies picked up Lois from Uni and headed to Hospital.
Fearing the "worst", my fears were met to some degree.
CT reveals no change - if anything tumours appear a bit bigger and more sharply defined.
Told dr of cramps etc.
Decided to give me "a break", so no chemo this Thu.
Blood test to see what cancer markers are up to - they have not reduced significantly.
Feeling v. low at present - something to go thru before being cheery, pleasant, at-peace-with-the-universe self.
Good music makes a big difference.
The art of living must never be underestimated.
Where to now?