Cancer Update

Tomorrow I go back into chemo.
Yesterday Lois and I met with Paul Thompson to talk about where things are at.
My cancer markers dropped down to 160 over the 2 weeks that I had a holiday from chemo, from 269,
Paul was surprised by this, as he had expected the count to go up.
This trend encouraged Paul to recommend going back into chemo and keeping a close eye on the markers and my comfort/pain levels.
After "one of those nights" in which mortality gets weighed up with pain and rational thought competes with intuition, and the daily grind pits itself against residual dreaming and inspiration, I have decided to go ahead with the chemo.
On condition that my comfort/pain levels stay good.
I do not relish and will not abide days of squirming in agony on a sofa with only the cat for company (lovable though he is).
Paul did say he thought I may see Christmas this year.
Unlikely to see Christmas 2011.
But he does get things wrong!
Chemo is designed to buy a few months extra time, and as the champion footballers among us know, extra time is a mixed blessing, and not much fun if you're on the losing side!
So, watch this space.
A spiritual adviser pointed out that I am by nature an optimistic/hopeful person and that I do need to go with this aspect of my character.
I have concerts, CDs and compositions still to complete, and fully relish getting into these things, as well as nurturing the wonderful teenagers I deal with every day (including my own!).
So, there we are...
For now...