Chemo Ghost (poem)

I am the chemo ghost.

A hollow man?

Head filled with....

memories
emotions
shadows
hesitations
echoes.

and more besides.

all around me are familiar faces...

the same as before!

but distant, somehow.

the boat adrift from its mooring.

where is it travelling?
where IS the horizon?
where is that distant shore?
that safe haven?
the island i dreamt of?

laughing
hugging
crying
concerned
tired

chemo ghost reaches out
and fails to touch
to connect
to feel

flat
grey
empty
ashes
dust

"How are you?"
"Fine, just fine"...